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Start here. The best way to learn to pray and read the Bible is to pray and read the Bible. The "..." invites personal prayer. Prayer is about common forms and also about your own voice. The parts at the end are either a quote, or my own response to my time of prayer. May each night and day be a new beginning. Chris Konker
Wednesday, March 31, 2021
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Thursday, March 18, 2021
Living Bread
"I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Whoever eats this bread will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world." (John 1:51)
Bread is nutritious, but it isn't nutritious on the level Jesus reserves for himself as the living bread. Bread feeds us, but we need to feed ourselves with it again. And its nutritious effect cannot guard against the deterioration of our abilities or skills that come from the brokenness of this world that we all labor within and under.
Jesus is the eternal Son of God, pre-existent with God the Father before all things. Among other places, Philippians 2 points us to this. Jesus' flesh is a gift, not only of his own life, but a gift to a world, an entry of the Lord into his own creation.
We receive this gift through the means of grace. This is how we eat. We are baptized. We receive the Word of God in such a way that we obey it. We receive the Lord's Supper. We understand ourselves to be feeding upon the life of Jesus so that his life grows within us in such a way that we live forever, because Jesus' life is a resurrected life in a body that can never be destroyed. And we are united to him in this way by his Spirit.
God loves this world. The gift of his life is for the life of the world. Our world is intended by God to savor with the health for which it was always intended. This is the gift of Jesus. This applies to every last inch of all God has created.
Jesus is nutritious living bread, bread that builds you up not only for the next few hours, but for all eternity. Christians are often tempted to focus so much on others being fed with Jesus that we forget to feed ourselves. I feel this. I need to eat, to pray, to read Scripture, to feed on Communion in worship if I have any hopes of feeding others. I want to see others feed on the same living bread that I enjoy throughout each day.
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Wednesday, March 17, 2021
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Merry
Marilyn Chandler McEntyre laments the loss of the word 'merry':
"Have you ever heard a friend returning from a party describe how merry it was? Unless you're very, very old, I suspect not. The word survives in American usage almost exclusively as a vestigial reminder of certain obligatory feelings of good cheer around Christmastime. But merriment itself seems to belong to a place beyond the looking glass - something we can imagine wistfully as we step into the world of Austen or Dickens, but can't bring back into the milieu of the contemporary cocktail party. Merriment seems to evoke two conditions of community life we have largely lost: a common sense of what there is to laugh about, and a certain mental health - what William James would have called "healthy-mindedness" - that understands darkness, but doesn't succumb to cynicism." (McEntyre, Caring for Words in a Culture of Lies, 30)
I've become familiar with a similar lamentation about the loss of real festivity. I remember once in a class about Easter that there was confusion about the difference between Easter as a 'day' and Easter as a 'season.' All we had ever known was Easter as a day, but had no inkling of how to observe a 50 day celebratory season of Easter the way one might observe a 40 day preparation for Easter by, say, fasting once a week. Is it like a wedding - in which there is an embrace by an entire community of a multi-day celebration? Is there something in the word 'obligatory' which takes away from the joy one might experience? Can one only be surprised by joy? Or if one were to put oneself consistently in a position to experience merriment, joy, mirth, or as C.S. Lewis described the jovial spirit, "desires fulfilled, winter overgone," wouldn't it fall short of our expectations given how much we already know of how abundance, plenty, and 'having it all' lead rather to unhappiness than happiness, dissatisfaction rather than satisfaction, and regret rather than gratitude? How do we pursue joy without something like greed, and how do we wait for joy without being entirely passive?
Of course, as with all good things, true joy or joy in a Christian sense is only ours through a participation in God. I like the way Lesslie Newbigin puts it:
"The joy of God is the joy of boundless generosity, of endless giving. God gives us all things freely, but gives them so that we may also learn to give them up. Our joy is not in getting and hoarding, but in getting and giving. The supreme joy is to share both the richness and the generosity of God." (Newbigin, Journey into Joy, 87)
And he shares these with us! A whole host of societal and personal matters obscure God's joy for us, in such a way that to try to parse it all and cut through it all, by itself, will not be an approach to joy, but rather an increasing withdrawal. But:
"If from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find him if you search with all your heart and with all your soul." (Deuteronomy 4:29).
The joy of all joys is to know him, and in knowing him to be known by him and to find that he is a fount of any number of qualities and affections like joy, mirth, joviality, richness, generosity, and merriment that may to one degree or another have gone dry from our daily experience.
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Wednesday, March 3, 2021
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Minding the Gap
Writer James Choung gave a presentation at the recent meeting of the Presbytery of Florida. He spoke about adaptive leadership. Though set largely within the intricacies of adapting to the tilt-a-whirl quality of organizational life in, and beyond, pandemic life, it also spoke to the basic nature of what it means to grow.
How do we grow? How do we improve? As people? As organizations?
He described one response to these questions as technical problems. Somebody knows how to do it. We find the person or group with the answers. They apply it. They put out the fire. They solve the problem. We move on.
The other response is that we are running into not a technical problem but an adaptive challenge. Technical know-how won't solve it, but it can only be addressed through peoples' priorities, beliefs, habits, etc.
Let's recast this in language of journey, of pilgrimage. We want to get from here to there. For a technical problem, knowledge and information of some sort will get us there. For an adaptive challenge, we ourselves must change.
We might describe here and there as the difference between reality and the values or goal or destination we'd like to attain or reach. In his book, Leadership Without Easy Answers, Ron Heifetz describes this gap:
"Adaptive leadership consists of the learning required to address conflicts in the values people hold, or to diminish the gap between values people stand for and the reality they face." (Heifetz)
We may have personal values or organizational values to which we adhere. A mission statement, perhaps, that serves as a compass. But this compass to there is what helps us to be all the more attentive to the rough seas, the high winds, the rhythms of nature, of day, of night that we meet here. If we think of our place within the Christian tradition, we might think of there as being a holy communal life lived for Father, Son, and Holy Spirit and for others and for this world that we talk about and pray toward and aspire to, and here being the various ways in which the end of each day discloses how we have not done this.
James K.A. Smith describes something along the lines of a 'godfather effect' in his book Awaiting the King. He alludes to the end of the 1972 film The Godfather where we see images of Michael Corleone engaging in a deeply Christian ritual - the baptism of his child - juxtaposed with images of a deeply anti-Christian ritual - exacting bloody, murderous revenge on one's enemies. Smith is very interested in this gap - the gap between values and reality (indeed, particularly the troubling reality of Corleone's lack of awareness of the gap). Smith describes the need for "disciplining the claims of liturgical formation and ecclesial identity with the realities of our compromise and complicity." (Smith, Awaiting the King) Smith believes very deeply that worship is a way to bridge the gap between what we say we believe (Corleone in baptism), and what our lives display about our beliefs (Corleone's revenge), but, like Heifetz, like Choung, like everybody in their personal lives, their business lives, their lives of Christian growth, and everything else - they are not sure if they know how to bridge the gap between their values and their reality. As Smith puts it elsewhere, "functional theologies trump our official theologies." What we really believe trumps what we say we believe. Or again, in other words, "culture eats strategy for breakfast."
How do we bridge this gap?
The gap between reality and our values? Between our functional theologies and our official theologies? Between culture and our strategized goals?
Now, I think the answer is prayer, but only because prayer is the way for us to experience life the way God experiences it. Only a very specific type of gap can persist between the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit - the gap that allows the Father to be 'the Father' and not 'the Son'. They are for one another, yet they don't disappear into one another.
Stratford Caldecott expresses this beautifully in his book, Beauty for Truth's Sake:
"...if the Trinity were instead a Duality, God would not be love but narcissism, and beauty would lose its radiance. It is the Holy Spirit, the fact that true love is always turned away from itself, pouring itself out for others, that makes it open and radiant, and creates room in the Trinity, for the creation itself, as well as for all the suffering and all the sacrifice that creation involves." (Caldecott, 35-36).
The greatest problems, the greatest gaps we face are not problems of know-how, requiring a certain 'it', a certain something. They don't chiefly require thought, or answers, or information. The greatest problems, the greatest gaps we face are problems of prayer, requiring a certain 'Thou', a certain Father-Son-Holy Spirit who can then distill a sense that I myself am not a bundle of techniques, know-how or solutions, not a puzzle-solving machine, but in myself a puzzle who has been solved by God and not by myself. The one who seeks himself by seeking God will find himself. That gap, begun by 5am, will likely be crossed by 6. All other gaps can be minded, endured, and can even sometimes, sometimes, become beautiful, and rejoiced in. Like that exquisitely precise 'gap' in God himself, the space for others.
So we pray. We name the gap. Help my unbelief. Help my lack of trust. Help the obstacles in myself and in the world that I can name, and help the obstacles in myself and in the world that I don't know how to name, that I'm blind to. Protect me from prayerless problem-solving.
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Tuesday, March 2, 2021
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Discretion
John Cassian lived in the 4th century and his writings, called Conferences are the greatest compendia of the monastic tradition of the desert masters.
In Book 2, one of these masters, the blessed Moses, remembers a conversation about perfection that some of the elders had with the great Antony, the original desert master. Some thought perfection consisted chiefly in fasts and vigils. Others, in attaining contempt for all things. Others, in solitude. Others, in duties of love and hospitality. Finally, deep into the night, Antony "finally" speaks:
"All the things that you have mentioned are indeed necessary and useful for those who thirst for God and who desire to come to him. But the innumerable falls and experiences of many people do not at all permit us to attribute the highest grace to these things. For we often see that those who keep fasts and vigils most rigorously and who live far off in the solitude in wondrous fashion, who also deprive themselves of any belongings to such an extent that they do not so much as allow a single day's food or one denarius to be left over, and who even fulfill the demands of hospitality with the utmost devotion, are so suddenly deceived that they are unable to bring to a satisfactory conclusion the work that they have begun, and they cap off the highest fervor and a praiseworthy way of life with a disreputable end. Therefore we would be able to know clearly what was the best way to come to God if we carefully sought out the reason for the ruin and deception of these people. For although the works of the aforesaid virtues abounded in them, the lack of discretion by itself did not permit those works to endure to the end. Nor can another reason be found for their fall, except that they were less well instructed by the elders and were utterly unable to grasp the meaning of discretion, which avoids excess of any kind and teaches the monk always to proceed along the royal road and does not let him be inflated by virtues on the right hand - that is, in an excess of fervor to exceed the measure of a justifiable moderation by a foolish presumption - nor let him wander off to the vices on the left hand because of a weakness for pleasure - that is, under the pretext of controlling the body, to grow soft because of a contrary lukewarmness of spirit." (Cassian, 85)
Antony depicts for us Jesus' narrow road as narrow because there is always the danger of the pendulum swing, that by avoiding one extreme too much, we end up falling into the opposite extreme, and even when we've fallen into both we can get stuck in a muddled, boring sense of moderation that is at root fearful of all future falls. This path is narrow indeed, where it seems we would constantly be teetering toward one fall or another! But the way of discretion remains the royal road for Antony, that for all its narrowness, royal because it is a glad road, freed from all extremes even the 'extreme' of moderation. Antony will go on to speak about the eye of the soul. This is key because the eye of the soul is on instruction, on wisdom, on the elders, and chiefly on Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Above all, not on ourselves. To have discretion is to be wise, not because we are wise, but because we walk with the wise.